Wiley's Wisdom

Joy: From the Ground Up

To Live Afresh February 11, 2014

I’m not showing off. When it comes to regrets, I just don’t have many. In fact, I think I can count them on one paw. And I can trace them back to one day. One day I wish I could relive. The day that changed my life forever.

It started like most other days of my young puppyhood – with my birth mom bringing my two brothers and I scraps from the garbage of a nearby restaurant. I remember snatching away the last bit of bread crust from my brothers. It was so petty of me – and though I wouldn’t know it until later, I regret it to this day.

Because that’s the last meal my little family would share before it happened. That was the day we got separated. The day we were on the road and the car just came at us so fast. When I saw it coming, I ran and didn’t look back. That was my single most painful regret. I never looked back.

CozyInstead, I ran back to what I considered home base and waited for my family that would never return. I dream of them often, my brothers and my birth mom, and what happened to them that day. I pray they ran away just like I did. I pray they stayed together and lived long and happy lives. But I will never know for sure. And it eats away at my little doggie heart every time I think of it.

Then, almost as soon as it is broken, it is whole again. Because if that hadn’t happened, if I had paused for even another second, I have no idea what would have happened. I don’t regret running. I regret not looking back.

“Make the most of your regrets,” suggested transcendentalist thinker Henry David Thoreau, “never smother your sorrow, but tend and cherish it till it comes to have a separate and integral interest. To regret deeply is to live afresh.”

I know my mom wouldn’t have wanted me to live afresh in my regret. Because she would have wanted me to embrace life in that moment. She would have wanted me to run. And I know she would be proud. Because every decision I’ve made since that one has led me to where I am today.


35 Responses to “To Live Afresh”

  1. Wiley really tugs at my heart strings ❤️

  2. Lyn Says:

    Oh Wiles, I just want to reach out and hug you. That brought tears to my eyes.
    Lyn xoxo

  3. kiwiskan Says:

    poor little Wiley…

  4. utesmile Says:

    Sometimes things happen out of our control an dit was to be, so you have found your new home and didn’t have to fend for yourself there alone. I do understand what you mean which bit you regret. You can in your dreams have your mum and brothers be in a loving family too. I also am sure your mum wherever she is would be very proud of the dog you have become, full of love and joy! Big hugs Wiles!

  5. You’re right, Wiley. It’s definitely what your mom wanted. She taught you survival and quick reflexes to prepare you. In that way, she brought you to the life you have now.

    Love and licks,

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  7. Sometime looking back can just cause it’s own grief and pain (trust me!) I don’t think you need to feel bad about not looking back

  8. Breath taking, heartbreaking, thankful and hopeful all wrapped up together. You are a wise little one.

  9. Hello, everything is going fine here and ofcourse every one is sharing information, that’s in fact fine,
    keep up writing.

  10. Sandy Says:

    That is quite profound Wiley. I think dogs live in the moment. And to think that everything in your life has led to this point where you are part of your family with Carter resting his head on you and feeling safe. It’s all good.
    p.s. I really hope your birth mom and brothers found their way into good homes with good people.

    • Dear Sandy,
      I think you’re right about us canines living in the moment. This is why I make an effort (it doesn’t come naturally for me) to remember my past and reflect on how it brought me to where I am today in the hearts, minds and arms of my forever family. I wish the same joyous reflection for anyone as it is truly a gift. 🙂
      Lots of love,

  11. huntmode Says:

    Dear Wyles, that picture of Carter resting his head on you and your keep watch, acting as his Guardian just as you said leading up to Carter’s arrival. You have actualized your dreams of the past into your present. I believe we stay connected even when we are separated or apart. Your birth Mom and siblings all feel your love flowing to and around them whether here on the planet or up in Heaven. Well done, Mister Wyles! Love HuntMode

  12. Reblogged this on Wiley's Wisdom and commented:

    The, almost as soon as it was broken, it was whole again.

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