I don’t know why she does this. It’s like the antidote to joy. But every now and then my dear forever mom hears a song and it makes her cry. It happened again today.
There’s this song that is so very sad I didn’t think I could find the silver lining in this moment. (And that’s coming from me, your resident doggie optimist.) The music video is even worse. I looked it up to see if I could find something (anything) happy to say about this hopelessly sad song and the video featured a variety of stories of people giving up. On love. Real or otherwise, for a parent or a lover, these people were truly giving up.
If dogs could cry, I think I may have been bawling. There was a little girl who hid under the bed with her doggie while her parents argued. There was a couple who fell out of love. And there was an elderly couple who were together literally until death did them part. It was so so so sad.
As was mom’s connection to it. Today she recalled a moment I wasn’t around to witness, but have heard about a couple of times since. Mom and dad were on their way home from the hospital with baby Carter the very first time when it happened. The song came on the radio. And mom started crying the tears I wish I could cry every time I hear this depressing anthem. But hers were not tears of sadness. They were tears of joy.
She has been through some tough times in life. She was let go from a job she loved. Two weeks later, her dad went to heaven suddenly before she had a chance to do so much as say goodbye. This happened when she was 23 years old. And she didn’t deal well with the losses, regardless of having a strong foundation of support around her. She turned to all kinds of things she regrets to this day.
Her family stood by her, and for this she is thankful. But so did my forever dad. He didn’t give up on her, even when she should have been given up on. This is why mom cried that day, as they drove home with dear baby Carter. Because he didn’t give up on her. Because, more than ever before, they are a family now. Because they brought love into this world. And, with it, they brought life.
I don’t care what anyone says. That is a happy memory.