I’m not sure what happened. I’m also not quite sure how it took me so long to notice. I guess it makes sense, with the little person to tend to and the weather we’ve been having. But it hit me today as I was outside enjoying some sunshine in my backyard paradise. Demon dog is gone.
Demon dog, the dog who injured the face of another neighbor dog friend of mine by chewing threw the fence. Demon dog, who taunted me incessantly from his side of the fence whenever he had the chance. Demon dog, who I so frequently wished would simply disappear. Well, it seems he has.
Today I tried to remember the last time I saw him outside, the last time we undoubtedly got into a verbal (aka barking) disagreement. It was cold – that much I know for sure. And there was snow. But I think it was before dear baby Carter came home. Maybe even before Christmas.
I don’t know when it happened. But now that it has I’m a little ashamed to admit how relieved I am. I am so very happy my little person will never be exposed to that kind of canine aggression. I feel free of a burden of sorts, as he was a bad influence on my canine instincts. When he barked, I barked. I felt like I had to in order to retain my doggie dignity.
But now that it seems he really is gone I can’t help but also feel the slightest bit guilty. It might be partially because I don’t know what happened to him. Where did he go? How long has it been? I have no idea.
I’ve heard there is this people phrase to be careful what you wish for, and I think in this case it rings true. It doesn’t matter how much of a nuisance he was. I constantly tried to put things in perspective. To remember he too has a past I know nothing about. And now he’s just gone.
I’m not sure what happened. But I have a feeling it might not be a happy ending. And I think the not knowing makes it worse. But I want to embrace the life lesson I’m getting from this whole dilemma. The golden rule. Never wish negative things upon another. Because when you do, life has a way of teaching you a lesson you might not want to learn.
Wiley's Wisdom 